During my awakening experience, I experienced several Dark Nights of the Soul. When I was passed it, I realized that we often do not recognize we are in resistance. So, I asked the guides to assist us in understanding how to become more aware of our own resistance, so Dark Nights of the Soul don’t linger more than they have to.
Who will assist us today? Xavier, my galactic angels, and Metatron, an angel of alchemical mastery, will assist us today. Beneath the question in italics is exactly what I hear from the guides, verbatim.
Before we begin, can you assist us in understanding what is resistance? When are humans resistant, and why do we resist?
Xavier: This is a good place to start because most humans do not understand resistance, and this is part of why they do not recognize when they are resistant. Resistance is quite a complex energy but we will try our best to simplify it to be understandable by the forced linearity of the human mind. Imagine your soul to be a diamond. Within the facets of the diamond are a series of sacred geometric shapes. These sacred geometric shapes overlap, and within the overlap is your curriculum. Now, imagine that each series of sacred geometric shapes represent the totality of an incarnation and every series interacts with every other series within the facets of the diamond. What we are describing to you is the matrix that is your blueprint.
Now, let us discuss how resistance shows up within this matrix we call the blueprint. Resistance is when there are three or more spokes that are interlaced at once. These spokes are an analogy for repetition of a soul lesson. Understand that when a behavior is repeated in multiple incarnations, the likelihood is that it was repeated because there was no awareness that the behavior was disjuncted from one’s soul note. This is why it is often very difficult to be in recognition of your own resistance – you have repeated the behavior enough times such that you do not recognize it as being separate from your soul note. You have no awareness of its fragmentation.
So, to wrap up our definition of resistance – resistance are soul fragments that have been repeated in multiple incarnations such that there is no awareness within the personality that they have been fragmented. This definition is why it is often challenging to recognize resistance. Precisely because you do not understand it to be resistance. In rare cases, you even empower your resistance because it has made you quite successful, by measure of validation, in the past. In your tabloids, you often read about young stars who seem very troubled but do not make different decisions. Why not? Precisely for what we are speaking of. They are caught in between their need to be in their soul note and the personality’s addiction to being validated. This is the core of why they are troubled and this is the core of why most people who go through a Dark Night of Soul is troubled. They are caught in between two values, one of whom is falsely believed to be consistent with their soul note and the other which actually is their soul note.
From that perspective, how do we become aware we are resistant to our own movement forward? Resistant to our own manifestation?
Metatron: This is the core of what Xavier and I wish to teach you today. To be able to recognize your resistance, you must be in recognition that there is an active soul fragment that needs to be integrated into the totality of the soul. To be clear, we wish to explain this process. These soul fragments, your curriculum as Xavier has defined it, held a belief system that is inconsistent with the soul note. This is what has been called in this blog as “stepping off the blueprint.” The aim is for this soul fragment, which is a part of the personality in this incarnation, to be in recognition of that false belief, the belief that fragmented them to begin with.
We wish to illustrate this using the example Xavier has used above: this young star or starlet that makes the tabloids. These young men and women are often told that drugs enhances their creativity and they believe this to be true so they engage in drug use. In reality, the handlers that are telling them these beliefs are merely facilitating a crime – drug use. These young stars are talented for a reason – their art is their soul note. So, they can get to the same level of artistry without the drugs. The art, the talent is in them. It is inherent in their DNA. They can get to the same place merely by tuning in to their soul centered self. How can they do that? Meditation is one way. Being in nature is another. There are countless ways to reach one’s soul centeredness that are taught by many spiritual teachers.
So, in this example of the star or starlet, how can they become aware? First, let us drill down to what is the belief that is consistent with their soul note, and what is the belief that is not. The belief that is consistent with their soul note is that their talent is their soul note. The belief that is not consistent with their soul note is that they need to do something extra to extract that talent that is consistent with their soul note. Understand that you are your soul note. You are your soul note, and your soul note is unique to you. No one else is capable of what you are capable of. So, to believe that this young man or woman must take drugs to become who they truly are is preposterous. This is a false belief. We use stars that are tabloid fodder because most people will recognize that what we are saying is true. These stars do not have to do most of what their handlers tell them to do, but in their belief that they will lose their career and therefore no longer have access to the validation it gives them, they give their power away to their handlers and do as they are told. So, we now hope you see the difficulty of resistance through the difficulty of these young men and women who create your entertainment. In their empowering a false belief – that they will lose their career because they are only talented with the drugs – they are denying their soul note. If you ask a child star who had great soulful guidance throughout their career, you will find that the parent or guardian who assisted them told them that the art is in them and as long as they tune in to that art, they will have an audience. So, these successful actors and actresses who made the transition to becoming adults who are whole within themselves did not empower the fear based belief system that destroy many young lives.
Second, we wish to show readers of this article how to recognize their own resistance. The first thing you can do was alluded to in the prior paragraph. When you are stuck, try your best to recognize the two belief systems that you are pandering to. Which one is true and which one is not? If you can be in this level of awareness, you will transmute your resistance very, very quickly – nearly instantaneous to when you recognize the two belief systems and name the one that is false. If you cannot recognize the two belief systems, then what can be done is you can tune in to how you feel within the silence of your soul note. Get deep into meditation and tune in to your soul note. This is simply done by intention. When you reach a higher state of awareness, ask to be shown why you are stuck, why you are resistant. What is the that feeling? Name it. What belief system are you holding that creates that feeling? When you make this connection, you will transmute this soul fragment that is causing resistance.
Any last messages before we close this post?
Metatron: Be kind to self in this recognition. Resistance is among some of the hardest soul fragments to integrate. Be proud of yourself for getting to this level of integration rather than be in self loathing that it is happening.
Thank you for your time and energy!
Xavier: Call on either of our energies to assist you with your resistance, and it will be so.
